Thursday, October 1, 2009

Finite

A good family friend of ours favors a particular T-shirt that has just recently caused me to think. He wears it in my presence just often enough that I'm beginning to wonder if maybe he hasn't been trying to tell me something all along. Sort of the 100% pre-shrunk cotton version of Ye-Faithful-Old-Sandwich-Board-Prophet; his message(if you will) posed in a question that I now know would be wise to ask myself more often...

"Why does every good idea I have get me into trouble?"


You see, I have had my share of 'Good ideas' this past year. And can you guess where they have all gotten me?

Yep, Trouble.

With all the things that have been happening I have been treading water just to keep from drowning. I have tried to meet every need and manage every problem we have been facing. I have stayed up late and gotten up early, I have been irritated that the only jobs in the paper are one's suited for me, not my husband; the one who is out of work. I have driven to apply for those jobs in an attempt to answer the financial questions, 'where will the money for (fill in the blank) come from?', and I have cried all the way there, knowing it was wrong. I have cried out to God for mercy...'I can't DO anymore...I am TIRED!'...and then I have tried to do more anyway.

But, then I paused long enough to hear those four little letters, and they got through.

S.T.O.P.

"STOP.

Retrace your steps-you were on to something there, what did you just say?

Oh, that's right... you can't do it anymore".


I have been trying to fight this fight on my own strength. I have been saying yes to things God has never called me to do because I don't trust Him to be and do what His word promises He will. I been living in a state of exhaustion instead of entering into His rest.

Despite the fact that it has been screaming at me, I have been forgetting the one fatal flaw in all my 'good ideas':


I am finite.


I have definite and definable limits.
I am limited in nature and existence.


What this means is that I can try all I want, but MY plans will never work.


As horribly depressing as that thought should be, I find it so liberating.

It is liberating because it points me back towards God, who is infinite.

Or in other words:

1 : extending indefinitely : endless
2 : immeasurably or inconceivably great or extensive : inexhaustible
3 : subject to no limitation or external determination.


Did you get the inexhaustible part? Don't say I didn't point it out to you.

He is SO not me.

We have access to a God who is incapable of being used up; He is incapable of being wearied or worn out.

It's the best idea yet...

Think it would fit on a T-shirt?

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the reminder! I also find myself trying to do His job for Him. Ahhh, sit back, rest and let God be God. Thanks again! - Kim

Christine said...

Great post! It's amazing what God does for you if you just let Him. My husband and I have seen this first hand in the past year. Praying for you and your family. It's hard sometimes to wait for God but it sure pays off when we do. :)

Emily said...

Needed this. Very frustrated that other godly people are hurting in the same way as you and I, while blatantly ANTI-God folks that I know are prospering...I am understanding David's psalms more and more. It's so annoying to try and do the right things and still feel like your teeth are being kicked in daily.....while others are prospering in their wickedness.

I need to stop venting on your blog, but I'm w/ you on this crappy year. :) SO, so...so...so with you. :(

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Oh this is exactly what I needed today!

sagerats said...

I hear you my friend. I once applied for a job, took a test for that job, and I passed it with flying colors. They hired me on the spot. I burst into tears and told them, "No, I can't take the job. I want to be home with my family." They just stood there in shock. I felt bad that I had wasted their time but the heaviness at the idea of being away from my children was more overwhelming then our poverty. The Lord did provide. He will provide again.

Love and miss you!

moreofhim said...

Wonderful post!! It's exactly what I needed. Isn't it funny how the Lord leads us to where we need to go - and to be blessed in the process?

God bless you!

Candice said...

Praying for your family.

Sammy4meowz said...

My friend Marsha posted this on her FB. I am so glad that I clicked on it and read! We are going through some major financial problems ourselves and I too can tend to try and take matters into my own hands. Thank you for the reminder that God is bigger than all of that!
Blessings to you!

Valerie said...

Definitely need THIS today. Helps put things into perspective. Thank you, LORD, for a timely message to me.

Melissa Stover said...

she's 9 months. but i know what you mean. my son didn't hardly say anything until he was 2.

Barbara said...

Perfect. Love it. thank you.

Melissa Stover said...

lol. i wondered if anyone would get that inchworm analogy. now please attach your email to blogger so i can reply to your witty comments.

Melissa Stover said...

instead of taking up space here under your ancient post. :)